Adaptation of "When you say nothing at all. ."

*This post was originally written on May 23rd, 2009.

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me.
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me.
The touch of your hands says you'll catch me, whenever I fall.
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.
(Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing at All)

Today is the 4th monthiversaryyyyy!
But still, we didn't meet each other today.

Yesterday I already talked to him, at J.Co Ciwalk.
I poured him all my thoughts, all the things that I wanted to tell him about us.
The atmosphere was a bit strained, on top of that I cried too. Just a few drops.
But well, we tried to be more... relaxed (?) We laughed, we talked. We held hands (tee hee).

Anyway, that "meeting" produce these results:
1. He apologized about what happened yesterday.
2. He promised to always keep his phone in sight.
3. I apologized for making him feel uneasy with my previous talk.

At the end, our problem is solved quite well.

By the way, there is one thing that I just realized (about Barsena).
Every time I apologize or say thank you, he will always say:

"Huh? For what?"

"Oh, it's not a big deal."

The point is...
He always feels that every sweet thing he's ever done for me is just an ordinary thing. It's not something that I should thank for.
And he always feels that our problems were caused by him, so I didn't need to apologize.
And he REALLY MEANT it, not just sweet talk-ing me.

Nevertheless...
You say it best, when you say nothing at all.

-Mutia

P.S. When I first wrote it (in 2009, that is), I felt that the song relates to my post. But now, I myself can't see the relation. Maybe you can guess and tell me?